Randomness...

Was eating at 强记 in Clayton yesterday alone and the waiter uncle asked me whether I'm alone...i said yes and he said:"哈哈。。要交女朋友le...要不然就一个人 lo..."...kakaka I knew he was joking but certainly got me thinking...

"Relationship wise where am I gonna be in 5 years time??still eating alone??"..I think its highly likely....for a further 10 years?20 years even maybe??God knows....besides I can't even feed myself and keep myself above water level...

One thing that God has been teaching me is when I leave these things aside, or rather in His hands, I can focus so much more in Him...and be able to walk in the plans that He has set ahead for me....

Priority in life (for now):
1) God
2) Family
3) Friendship
4)Study
5) Work
6) Relationship

I think relationship comes pretty low amongst other priorities and I'm just emotionally really tired as well...it's surely a roller coaster ride... use to have Sheryl for the pass 21 years as my "permanent" girl friend...and I think I'll continue to stick with family and friends for now..hehe...
"So God What should I do??...just hav faith in You i guess..hehe...

(p/s: who says I don't write about emo stuff on my blog...kakaka)

Prayer for a friend...

Yes I'm bored of studying...I don't mind calculation stuff...but theory stuff and memorizing stuff is just driving me crazy....

Heard this song when I was driving home from BSF last night:

"Prayer For A Friend"-Casting Crown
Lord, I lift my friend to You,
I've done all that I know to do
I lift my friend to You
Complicated circumstances have clouded his view
Lord, I lift my friend up to You
I fear that I won't have the words that he needs to hear
I pray for Your wisdom, oh God,
and a heart that's sincere
Lord, I lift my friend up to You.
Lord, I lift my friend to You
My best friend in the world,
I know he means much more to You
I want so much to help him, but this is something he has to do
And Lord, I lift my friend up to You
'cause there's a way that seems so right to him
But You know where that leads
He's becoming a puppet of the world, too blind to see the strings
Lord, I lift my friend up to You
My friend up to YouLord, I lift my friend to You, I've done all that I know to do
I lift my friend to You...

Reminded me of a lot of people in my life:

New friends in Uni...Older friends..."Bachelor" gang!!! I think I'm the only bachelor left..kakaka...

Even older friends....6M-ers!!!

Family...

Extended Family..

Even more Extended Family!!

Lord I lift my family and friends onto you...

At the cross...

This song just means so much to me:

At the cross

Oh lord you've searched me,
You know my way, Even when I fail you,
I know you love me...

Your holy presence surrounding me,
In every season,
I know you love me...

At the cross I bow my knee,
Where your blood was she'd for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place,
What can separate me now...

You go before me
You shield my way,
Your hand upholds me,
I know you love me...

You tore the veil,
You made a way
When you said that 'it is done'

And when the earth fades,
Falls from my eyes, And you stand before me
I know you love me, I know you love me...

"Oh Lord you search me...even when I fail you, I know you love me"...

Psalms 139:1- O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.

Lord how You so faithfully searched me in the wilderness...when I was searching for a reason...You gave me reason to live for..and despite all my failure, all my iniquity, I know you still love me...

"At the cross..where your blood was shed for me..thers no greater love than this.."

Matthew 27:46-Jesus cried out in the loud voice,"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?

Romans 5:8-But God demonstrated his own love for us in this:While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Oh Lord how can we imagine how painful it was to be separated for God your own father? I can't even imagine how much grief i will hav if I was separated by my parents....it must have been tormenting to be torn apart and drawn apart from God because of the punishment of sin we deserve, but not You....

"You have overcome the grave, Your glory fills the highest place, what can separated me now?"

Romans 6:10-The death he died, he died to sin once for all, but the life he lives, he lives in God

Romans 8:39-neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

If Jesus didn't rise from the grave...then how would us have been forgiven for our self-righteousness?? Yes Lord our flesh still desires to do the wrong thing, but God we have the hope that you died for our sins once and for all..and the life we live...we want to live a life like You, righteous and living in the light of our God.

"You tore the veil, you made a way, when You said that 'it is done'.."

John 19:30-Jesus said"It is finished."With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit

Matthew 27:51-At that moment the curtain of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom

Literally, the curtain covering the place into the Holy of Holies where only those whose sin has been temporarily atoned for through sacrifices can enter, was reaped in two, so that everyone can experience the presence of God.

God longed for that relationship with us, He didn't want us to present to Him artificial offerings or have Him so high up that no one can reach...but He wants to be in our midst, be our best friend, someone we can rely on 24/7....To be able to rejoice with one another during good times, and persevere together during bad times...thats the intimate relationship He longs for...and thank you Lord for making that way for us to have that relationship with You...

Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord"

I know God is constantly waving that gift in front of my family, my friends, everyone. A gift that cost us nothing, but cost Him everything....and God I know it is Your desire that none shall perish and all shall have eternal life...so I trust in your timing God...

I trust in You......and I know You love me...

Sis I love you...

Suddenly have the urge to talk about my sis,

Personal Profile:

Name: Sheryl Sze Chien Ng

Age: 21

Gender: Female

Height: 168 cm (or 170 cm as she claims)

Weight: ... (shell's gonna kill me if I reveal this)

ya Sheryl's been my closers buddy, didn't really regard her as a whole up there, full of respect sister, maybe because she's only 15 minutes older!!!hehe...but ya she's been more like a friend to me...and of course been my permanent "girlfriend" as well...kakaka...

Just some memories since we came to Australia together:

In 2004 December, we started as young and naive year 11 students venturing in to an unknown country and school, Blaxland.

2006 Year 12 Formal - I look horrible..kakaka..

2007, started the next phase of our life...UNI!!!and for the 1st time in 19 years we are living separately....

Road Trip down to Melbourne..a new Uni life..

Piggyback...when did I out grow you??hehe..

Merdeka day...

07/10/2007, Sheryl gave her life yo the Lord, exactly three months after me!!hooray...

2008 was one of the closest year we had relationship wise, sorta missed having her around (éspecially to clean up my room..hehe..) in first year, so getting to see Shell every weekend at church was great and bonded us closer together.
In 2009 we both decided to go on exchange for half a year, shell to Bologna in Italy and me to Sheffield UK.

Family Photo session before we went off for an awesome exchange experience

This exchange experience was the furthest we've been away from one another, both in a foreign land, maybe it did start a change in our relationship, where we're stop being reliant on each other.

2.5 months, the longest we've been apart until April in Amsterdam

Sam?Sheryl?Sameryl??!!

Nonetheless, we had awesome bro and sis trips around europe:Amsterdam, Brussels, Scotland, Ireland and UK, and yes we had arguments along the way, but it reminded us of the bond we share with one another...

Edinburgh Scotland

Many things has changed since we've been back to Australia,

New people, hard times, at times I feel that we're going our separate ways, which is inevitable i guess, we'll eventually have new people in our lives..

But..

No matter what happens, you'll always be my one and only Sis, one who knows all of me, and one who I can totally be myself...I love you sis....now and forever...although sometimes I can be harsh with my words, but forgive me...I'm just fustrated at times..

Love you always sis!!

I broke up with facebook...

yeah I'm finally off facebook....until the end of exams anyway...so I'll probably spent more time on this blog...(to distract me from work...kakaka)...

BRING ON THE EXAMS>>..well i actually have three assignments to tackle before that 1st....

Get disciplined!!

Have been wasting my life and time away on facebook again...especially today...set out to do work for two hours work...ended up only being half an hour...darn....buckle up sam!!!

I think I'm gonna stop going on facebook for a month until exams over....

ah stressing assignments and exams are coming...
God pls help me!!

its mid semester holidays!!!

yeah finally its the mid sem break for Monash....so not fair...we only have a week and its only a couple of weeks from exams...oh well...."SAM STOP COMPLAINING AND DEAL WITH IT!!"

Been hit by a sudden interest in AFL(Australian Rules football)...and good on ya the cats GEELONG~~!!!!winning the grand final!!! surely ur the greatest team of all...

AFL Premiers 2009!!!

On a spiritual side of things, its been a little bit of a yoyo since I've been back to Melbourne. I just feel like at times I lost the passion for God and others and instead have more questions and even more unanswered questions....

but God has been faithful and constant....many times when I felt like just throwing in the tower and remain status quo...God has been there and strengthen me....the many verses of encouragement...Romans 5:3-5 and Hebrews 10&12 just to name a few...and of course all the wonderful people around me who has been a great encouragement to me...

At the same time when I'm knowing more about God's word, I start to realize how many unanswered questions I have, 'but I'm starting to realize that:yes, you'll always have questions, doubts, some that can't be answered by anyone on this earth even, but what matters the most is...

God You made a way for us, You let your only Son die on that cross for our sins...and God You love us...

I KNOW this is true. and Thank you Lord...I trust in You for everything and everyone....