first up Merry Christmas to everyone!!
Got to say this year was one of the most exciting Christmas I've had for a while. Although still missed having family around, but those in Melbourne sure made it a memorable one.
Christmas eve with Aunt Suzy and staying over at the Tay's, then morning celebrating Jesus birth with church, and then family lunch with aunt leesen and uncle Gordon, and finally awesome dinner at the Fang's with ISMers...was super tired after....but fullfilling none the less..
Actually last week Ps.Jules..(kakaka sorry had to give you the pastor title) gave a message about vision and sight, and even gave us homework...typical teacher..kakaka...
so here it goes:
HindsightWhat I learnt in 2009?
(Reflect on past experiences)
Hmm..I guess one of the biggest experience was going on exchange to UK. Seems like so long ago now. 5 months there sure taught me a lot of things, teaching me that the world is so much bigger and diverse then i thought. Other than that, it also taught me to think on my feet, to ask, to step out of my comfort zone. I think the one thing i learnt alot is not worry too much. A lot of times whether its just associating with people, when being asked to do something, when facing uncertainties when going travelling, I tend to consider all the consequences, and a little too thoroughly then I needed to,making me scared to do alot of things. In short just not having enough faith in God. So thank God that he allowed me to balance between rationalizing and just willing to step out in faith. Just as someone shared with me:"a challenge is God's invitation for us to move forward..."
And another thing is I want to thank all the people I've met on my journey, CD and everyone, SCCC, u guys just made the exchange experience that much more special....
InsightWhat is happening in & around me now and why?
(Reflect on your current stage or events in life)
I guess in alot of ways I feel I'm more mature. That is, being myself in front of people, not being timid and shy, I think i still do sometimes, but hopefully much less already. I can sense that God is continuing to remould me to the man that He wants me to be, through His words, through people, and through the experiences I've faced. I don't think I'm quite there yet, well God you'll let me know when.
Another is realizing how privilleged I am. Having a great family, education, and being able to worship God freely. And at times I still feel discontent, angry, even unsatisfied at times. But this year alot of things and people showed me how minute my disapprovals are when compared to those who have no choice, for those who face medical and family issues but yet stand strong in faith. They give a new definition of what having F.A.I.T.H is all about!!...so ya, there's another thing to work on...
ForesightWhat are plans for 2010?
(reflect and base on your hindsights and insights gained)
well for 2010, first of all is to graduate and to find a job. So to graduate means I need to work hard and b focused, and to find a job is to actually go about LOOKING for them, in the short term maybe a part time job if I can cope, but definitely a long term engineering job when I graduate.
More importantly I want to continue to grow and know God more. So that involves having a disiplined quiet time and prayer, reading books, etc etc. Got to set time aside to do those things.
And to continue to do the things that He has laid ahead for me. I'll be taking up leadership roles in ISM and Church youth group, so I want to b fully commited to the things I need to do, to win people for Christ, to be a accountable and a living testimony for God. (kakaka, this involves getting the admin side of things in line first...hehe). And if it is by God's will then I'll b going on Missions next year, God show me where you want me to go.
kakaka, feels like answering essay questions doesn't it? Well it did get me thinking of who I was, am, and things I want to do in the future. God i thank you for everything that has happened in 2009, and grant me the faith to believe in that 2010 will be an even better year!!!!
BYE BYE 2009~~~
BRING ON 2010!!!
